haaayz….

august 20  2007

…alang pasok!…ninoy aquino day!…
…nalate ako sa usapan nmin sa 184…
…kapagod din un…pero d pa din kmi tapos..haaays!…
…nagdinner kami ni rhea…i just feel good being with this gurl… i feel her sincerity and kindness!…
…her bein so family-oriented!…
…she said…"khit d mo na gusto ang ginagawa mo…gawin mo for your family!…
…kaile said…"madaling magbago, basta detrminado ka!…

go cath! u can do it!

hays…naiinis ako ngaung araw na to! isang malaking buntong hininga! waaaah! ang thesis ko! ahuhu! hays…ba’t kc kylangan pa to? ang daya nmn! tas ung ung iba! pachill-chill lang! hehe! uhmmmm tas pg d ako nkgraduate on tym…ang daming magtataas ng kilay!???

anner! asa UP po ako! as in University of the Philippines! leche! d nmn  po sa ngyayabang! kau kya mg-aral dito! bogsh!

..namimiss ko tlaga cia! hays….!

kainis! naiinis na naman ako! cguro kasalanan ko na nmn kung bkit ngyayari to! potah! ayoko na! for the second tym nasasaktan n naman ako! leche! naiiyak ako! no matter how i try na di masaktan..e bat napifeel ko pa din to! hays! kasalanan ko kasi…nagtiwala na naman ako…d ko lam na ganto pala kasakit! I TOT NATUTONNA KO DUN SA UNA…hays…ayokoooo nah…naiinis ako sa sarili ko….bat kc nararamdaman ko pa to…sila tuwang tuwa para sakin tas ako naiinis ako,,,hays…arggggh! ayoko tlga ng gantong feeling! akla ko ok na ang lahat,! i tot mgiging msaya na ko! grabe~! ayoko ng gantong feeling!

naiinis ako sa kanya kc prang tinatake for granted nia ko..kc nmn ang kulit ko…in d first place…ako na din ang may sabi na "i wont demand anything from you! " waaah..d ko pla kaya!  kainis! i have the ryt ,nmn cguro d ba? arggh! naiinis na tlga ko sa kanya! kainis! naturingang…hmp! tas natitiis ako ng ganung ktgaL! badtrip eh! pakshet!

kc nmn ndi nako natuto! akla kc ng lola mo seryoso! hays…dis 2nd tym around…mukang ndi n namn! hays..kelan k ba matututo cathlyn joy! dapat dala k na eh!

hays

..itgil na ang kalokohang to! kc nmn nagpaloko ako eh! lols!

…ayoko na tlga! huhu!

…masakit pa din pla khit ganun!

…nababadtrip tlga ako sa kanya!

so open up your morning light
and say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
and see the peace in every I
she had two babies
one was six months one was three
in the war of ‘44
every telephone ring
every heartbeat stinging
when thought it was God calling her
oh would her son grow to know his father
CHORUS:
i don’t want to wait
for our lives to be over
i want to know right now
what will it be
i don’t want to wait
for our lives to be over
will it be yes or will it be
sorry
he showed up all wet
on the rainy front step
wearing shrapnel in his skin
and the war he saw
lives inside him still
it’s so hard to be gentle and warm
the years passed by and now
he has a granddaughter
chorus
oh so you look at me
from across the room
you’re wearing your anguish again
believe i know the feeling
it sucks you into the jaws of anger
oh, so breathe a little more deeply my love
all we have is the very moment
and i don’t want to do what
his father and his father and his father did
i want to be here now
so open up your morning light
and say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
and see the peace in every I
chorus (2 times)
so open up your morning light
and say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
and see the love in every I

aug 5, 2007…i formally claim to myself that all those ‘bad memories" with *** in my life will be finally over! (waaah..sana nga! ) well sabi nga nila..it’s all in the mind! ano pang silbi ng pagiging frustrated psychologist ko kung d ko nmn sususndin at gagawin d ba? hehe! eniweis..kaya nga frustrated eh! hays…

ayun..last night…i received a message coming from ***, saying dat "wag ka nang magtext."…ayun,,ngulat ako kc d nmn cia ganun mgtext sakin eh…d cia gaunun buong word na mgtext…so suddenly that thought came to my mind na d cia un…pero eniweis..co much for this story…d bottom line is "sguro tama na to! as in!’

para na din sa ikatatahimik naming dalawa..at ikatatahimik ko din!" masaya na cia eh…sobrang saya to the point na naiinis ako sa sarili ako dhil nging intruder ako sa kanila eh! i know the feeling ng nasasaktan,,no matter how i love ***, ayoko na! ayoko na in the sense na ayoko na tlga! gusto ko na ding manahimik no!

para sau!

…sguro nga, we’re not meant to be..haha.joke even friends!heheh! syang noh! im beginning to establish a great friendship with you pa nmn! kaya lang it made me realized na d pa rin pede! kc at the back of my mind eh my ibang motive pa din ako! but im fyting back of this feeling…so for our own good!…wag na muna cguro cba? cguro in the future! hehe! basta wag na muna ngaun! pipigilan ko ang sarili kong itext ka! ahaha! khit na namimiss na kita ng sobra sobra! ahaha! mabait nmn kc ako eh at ayokong mkagambala! basta d least that i can do is to pray for you both! na sana mging happy kau! basta if you feel like texting me and i feel like txting you to…hehe i mean at the ryt time~! aheheh! basta! o panu! ingat na lang! God Bless!

—that’s it! *wink!