haaayz….

this year is a very tiring one most especially this last quarter of this year.Many things were happened that tested my faithi, ability as well as the rest of all aspects of my life if i still can handle on what were the things that were and are need to accept and will still keep struggling for. Academic days were over and yeh, i di not graduate on time since i got extended on my thesis last summer. I was not a centennial graduate of my alma mater where it would give you the perks  of a lot of special mentions due to its precious name. Yep, i got to accepted the reality  but it took me a lot of self encouragement just to get out of that feeling, knowing that most of your friends and  batchmates were  just waiting for their thesis to get  bind and  starting to prepare for their grad pics anfd lastly what to wear with  that precious day that they would be called to get to the center stage to receive  the certification of the four years that they have sacrificed.

yah, this bitter feeling was quite overdue, but i cant say that im really a bitter at all, well sort of, some things were quite regretful that i did not graduate on time and should have taken the board exam after that along with my sisses..so much time were wasted just because of so much idleness. i know that this was God’s plan, and everything has a full of reasons and things were really not like the same as they were.

i got extended. i did not graduate on tym, i did not take the board this year, i was left out..the same odd and bitter feelings that i used to have..too pathetic that these are still fleeting on my mind, AND ITS TIME TO TAKE THESE ALL OFF…just because these were all over but also the fact that it wont change after all even if ill resent the fact all over again, these were just haunt and haunt me and it wont do me any good, just like the book that i just read this day..this is past..move forward..you are not yet left behind!..SCRAP THESE OFF!

yep i finished my college years and just waiting for the next year april to march and have my grad pic..God will cerrtainly do things that are well planned and still according to Him..and im still thankful to Him that he gave me life that were still plenty of people to love and to cherish..those things were quite hard to bear but He stil gave me a chance to wake up each moning and have lots of hope…

it had been three months of my status as being umemployed and still keeping of the latest jobs that might suit my needs..the first one try was quite bad and traumatic knowing that you were a graduate student and wasadenied for the job application..i did not make it and three of the same line of work had put me down..i got a notion then that i was too “bobo” because i i did not make it and was not able to get the job. Things were really not the same when you got to exposed to the real world..way back when i was in college, UP thought me to be tough that when you study there.. once you get out of the campus territory, you’ll find out that life is too easy since ypu already experienced all the hardships way back in college and it was all the same..but reality still hurting me and i was not prepared for it..people might think that you are graduate but it still not the thing that they would give you favor of. LIFE IS REALLy UNFAIR…and it wont be fair always..the only thing that you need is a thick skin and overflowing self confidence and tough heart to bear and overcome rejections that migt come your way…life is teaching you to be tough always..and you must learn it the hard way!

just to keep moving on..you just say to yourself that..the workmight not be for you…and there woul be a better work out there that would give you a fulfillment.

tHANK GOD, AFTER THRREE MONTHS OF BEING A BUM, THERE WAS THIS JOB WHERE I DESPERATELY  grab due to being tired of the best jobs that might come my way. Sacrfice was overflowing..and effort kung efort. interview at 1 am..hell.. I might as well take the chance kesa nmn walang job di ba..

then, after almost 3 months of working, I just noticed that Im not happy anymore. Friends are still the only factors that is keeping me alive and and getting off the bed at wee hours or late at night in the evening just to come to work. But all of my closest friends gave up already and we were not the same as before bec we were scattered in diff teams and schedule. Salary is good but living in manila was too quite hard. Working environment was also not that good exp for me. What Im gonna do?

happiness still matters..yep, I might sacrifice time again on working out and hunt for job again with not so competitive salary but I might think that it is still the best thing to do after all. yung alam  mong you are happy with what you are doing and wil give the best shot on that work that you love to do.Yep, It will take a lot of encouragement but I think this is the right thing to do…after al..you, yourself will still do matters..

have a tough mind and heart..

life is freakin hard anyways… take risk! :0